Silence is Not always Gold...

Communication is one of the most important factors towards the success of any relationship in the world, and it walks through the path of talking with eachother,discussions back and forth, opinions need not be the same all the time, yet all these things bring you closer to the person you are dealing with especially if both of you are putting in the same effort to outgrow any distances. The opposites in a person make you want to understand them more, give them more of your time and attention because you see them different from you in various ways, and that gives you the curioristy, interest to go beyond, and know more what exactly is hidden underneath their surface..

In the meantime, similarities are also a good thing, and definetly a safe road to continue walking through because you feel that you are both meeting half way, and you have a conversation flowing naturally..I always loved the quote "Silence is Gold", and truly believed in it, and still do, but there comes a time when you should talk and express your feelings, worries, sadness, happiness, fears, concerns, and emotional changes to protect yourself from any misunderstanding that can occur irrelevantly, and that can lead your relationship to drift away from within both of you..

At this point my readers might assume and feel im talking only about relationships that include committment, love, and marriage, but I further address all types of relationships excluding colleagues at work, and professional contacts because there are totally different factors and categories involved, have higher boundaries, and red lines that should always be followed in order to always keep the relationship in its proper frame..

Silence is the best possible option when you have tried talking and expressing yourself and didnt find what you had expected or hoped for in terms of opinion, thought, and emotion.  Automatically, you will find yourself moving a couple of steps backwards in complete silence to protect yourself from being hurt and disappointed..

Talking and expressing yourself is a positive step towards honesty, and slowly unleashing what is hidden, it breaks high walls, and saves you from any sudden falls. On the other hand, being an open book all the time to your friends, family and loved ones is not always the best option to choose.. Anything that is yet to be unwrapped is a catch to anyone's eye, so always remember to keep something for yourself, safely kept in your secret box until the time is right in every way to let it out to the open whether in terms of the situation you are in, the person you will share it with, and most importantly when 'you' are ready to pour out what is left of you..

At the end, I want to finally pass you pieces of advice from my personal experiences:

1- Acknowledge when it is the best time to talk, discuss, negotiate, argue, express your feelings, and possibly choose silence..
2- Understand the 'actual picture' of any situation before firing all what you have to say because that might completely ruin the picture you once had within your hands..
3- Value the jewel of Respect, Cherish the gift of Honesty, Protect the pillars of Trust, and Shower the waterfalls of Love within your mind, heart and soul..
4- Apply logic, reason, and maturity to important decision making..
5- Listen before you speak..
6- Have good intentions towards the person infront of you; yet always keep your eyes and heart open to surprises to save yourself from any disappointments..
7- Follow this rule towards certain people in your life that only 'you' choose and decide to put them in this category based on evidence, situaitons, and previous experiences - "you are guilty until proven otherwise"

Its Never Too Late ... ^_*

. . . To wake up and smell the coffee because you should always have faith within yourself that tomorrow morning is a new day, a new chance to taste your cup of coffee without a 'sorry' or a 'worry'..

. . . To follow the letter C for a change in your everyday life..It is within your hands to achieve it all..Capture a Chance..a Change..and a Choice to make the difference you want to see and feel in yourself..and for yourself..

. . .To do what makes 'You' feel happy, joyful and satisfied even if that means to leave all your current stressful days and ongoing responsibilties behind you for a while and 'RunAway' to a new place..to hunt for a new adventure..and to locate a new region within your soul..

. . .To follow your dream, and pursue your passion whether it means to improve academically where you can register for a degree you always wished to begin, improve in your career, or it can simply mean that you have a strong passion for something, and you truly want to practice if for the years ahead in your life..

. . .To truly love, respect, and value yourself in everyway especially when dealing with the people around you whether they were family, friends, acquaintnces, or random people you recently came to know, and becamce part of your life..You always have to put yourself before anyone, and I dont mean being a 'greedy' person by this; instead give yourself what it truly deserves, and that would be to live with dignity and class no matter how close this person might be or how much you care, and love this person..Keeping many people ahead of yourself will lead you to being disappointed and sometimes hurt simply because people are different, and we dont always receive what we expect from them even though they might be very close, and have an important impact in our life..Always remember there are no garantees when you go beyond and cross boundaries for anyone..The moment you sense that you are affected, then there is something wrong, and only you will have the ability to make this Change..

. . .To say 'No' to anyone who will interfer in your life in anyway..You have to stand up, protect yourself and your family from being shattered, and separated..It takes seconds to break a home, but years to build it, and actually have the strength to maintain it..

. . .To realize your mistake and say 'Sorry' to someone you disappointed, let down, blamed for no reason, harsh, rude, too honest that lead them to being hurt even if you truly didnt mean to do what you did or say what you said..Always remember they might be with you today, and tomorrow God will have a new place for them where ever that might be..The result is that there is always a possibility they wont be with you all the way through.. Forget your Ego somewhere else..

. . .To have a new-look even if that means having a crazy funky style to your hair, wear the weirdest outfits, and colors that you never wore in your life..The important thing is to always shower the level of your confidence, live to be unique, classy, and definetly have your own style that portrays your personality..Sometimes, change is what we truly need after being burried in routine for a long time..

. . .To run for your life..for your success, and your future that only you will be able to create, and achieve by having strong faith in God that life is good, and you have to always live it to its fullest as a full package..Always keep in mind, you are never getting younger in age, so make use of every minute in your life successfully, happily, and passionately..

Now its time for me to dedicate this piece of writing "Its Never too Late" to My dearest, most special, loving, caring, sincere, loyal, kind hearted, & unique Cousin - DuDu..who always motivates, supports, and encourages me during all the years of my life.. Over a cup of coffee, she advised me and said 'its never too late' to achieve what you truly want in life..From that point onwards, I was inspired by her words, and wrote this piece as a ThankYou note to her,as a reminder for myself, and an inspiration lesson to all my wonderful readers...:)   

I am Sure you Love your Best Friend...

I always thought the most important factor in any relationship was love...Now I am sure this was simply a childish myth that ran through my mind for many years ahead, where I believed in it, or didnt want to see reality, but in all cases I definetly acted upon it..

How long you've been best friends, shared stories and secrets; and walked through similar experiences together and whether you know each other from childhood, school, college or any other, it  doesn't really count or is even considered as a warranty to both of you; yet of course what you share is appreciated, and kept close to the heart..

In my opinion, what truly counts is the situation that happened between you, how deep and intense it was whether it was good or bad, but it definetly brings you a step closer to knowing the person.  Clearly, it is the situation that creates everything and more; and not the number of years in which you have known the person..

In life, sometimes it takes us more than a decade to truly know the people in our life, and who are we actually dealing and spending most of our time with..Of course I am not generalizing; or intend to be a stereotype, yet I am sharing with you my personal experiences, and how I have changed and reached to my updated views which are now guiding me through my journey in life. Now, I am sure love is important, and should always be on the list for any relationship; yet it is not always a priority that will lead towards success..

I would like to clearly say that it mostly depends on the person infront of you, the actual situation, and their personal views about life that can lead them to act and react towards a certain situation in a specific way that is completely normal and ethical for them, but need not be appropriate for you or even acceptable - afterall people are different, and we are supposed to accept the people in our life for who they are, because we clearly should know that people dont change, and everyone has pros and cons to their personality.

Unfortunately this doesn't stop us from getting affected, hurt and sometimes shocked from people whom we thought were very close to us throughout our life, and that nothing in the world could scratch or break the strong bond we share with that person.  I am not saying that we should lose them or disconnect ourselves from the friendship; yet simply understand how they think and behave in order to prepare ourselves how to react and respond accordingly in the exact similar way to protect ourselves from any negative drawbacks we could fall into.

We have an old Eastern saying that says A-"Do you know the person"? B-"Yes".. A-"Did you live with that person"? B-"No" .. A-"Then you simply dont know him"... ...

My personal view about this saying is that its true most of the time, but sometimes there are exceptions in this world where you truly know the person you are dealing with from within their soul, and you are naturally gifted with transparency in your relationship, and I truly believe this is a gift from God because simply it is slowly but surely moving onto the vanishing path..

I always believed that we should treat people the same way we want to be treated, and I used to follow this theory for many years, yet again I was proved completely wrong to have followed this path, simply because not everyone we deal with will behave, act and react the way we do towards a certain situation...

Now, I am convinced that we should treat people for who they are and what they deserve from us, and that everything should be done, and given in moderation. We have to learn to never over react in our care, love, and support no matter how close and strong the relationship is; yet at the end of the day it will always be categorized under the 'friendship umbrella'...

You always have to know when to give, when to care, when to support, when to speed up, and when to pull up the brakes in your relationships or else if you go with the flow, and have nothing planned in your mind, you will simply be taken for granted and stepped over like a door mat. No matter what happens, keep your head high up, respect yourself, so everyone will respect you back in return..

"Never love too much..Never care too much..Never expect too much, because simply you will get hurt so much"... ...

Why... ...

Why did you allow me to dream, when you know it wont be reality...

Why did you leave me so much to remember when you are sure one day you will be gone...

Why did you give me hope when there was never any...

Why did you take my hand into the deep sea, and suddenly leave me too late to go backwards... 

*Summer-2011*

Sad on the Sand...

Sad on the sand..

With no one to hold..& no where to land..

Oh God please walk by me hand-in-hand..

I ask you to never leave me until the very end..

         *Summer-2011*

Quotes for the Mind & Heart...

"Believe what you see, forget what you hear.." *updated motto*

"Im a big big girl in a small world" 

"Love to hear the lies, when I already know the truth..."

"It's amazing how much someone can hurt you without them even knowing..." *whatever*

"The first person whos on your mind the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason of either your happiness or pain..." *facts*

"Realize, she might not be insecure; she just doesn't trust a lot of people because of the past..." *facts*

"What goes around, comes around" "Wake-up-smell the coffee" "Some things are felt,& never said" "First mistake is a 'mistake'; second one is a 'choice' "Love me as I am, or watch me as I go" "Treat people the same way you would like to be treated". "It takes two to tango" "Nothing lasts forever" "Bad things happen to good people" "You don't respect yourself, no one will" "Everyone is guilty until proven otherwise" "A thin line between why & why not"

Listen to Her Silent Voice...

Preparing and completing my endless list of things to do, people to see, places to visit, pages to

throw, others to burn, while opening new ones painted in the colors of only my

happiness..'my plans' - my dreams..my future map..*I will do it all on my own-no one else will*

When..how..why..I have nothing more to say but Oh My...*hang on*

I celebrate when adding new friends, new people & much more when deleting, blocking unwanted shallow people...

Only I know where I come from..what i want & where I want to go...

Roses are just roses...

Quietness is priceless...

Patience is elegance...

Maturity is defined by everything except age...

Feeling warm in cold weather is a good sign...

Sleepless is endless & tasteless, yet when choosing the tuitty fruity juicy tiny winy candy sweets; it can be so
dekicious:*   

Different..significant..vibrant she will always remain to be...

Who simply does not value my mind,will never win my heart..

If you're sincere;doesn't mean others are too..

She rarely had that 'special someone',but when she does,& that 'click' clicked; she gives all what she's got & more..When she's hurt,she can never 'hate',but keeps a record of all black-listed ppl..*reference*

Don't see people through your lens,but for who they truly are..

It hurts when you think someone understands who you truly are,but they actually don't,& what's worse is they get you all wrong..

Kind hearted,patientaurus,yet when teased she's The Bull..

Who doesn't know a thing about my past,has no right to judge me at present,or predict how will I be in the future..

She's shy with strangers;it takes a personality 'out of the box' to unwrap her mind,soul,& heart..

She gets super annoyed when her 'kind heart' gets mistakenly shuffled-up with 'stupidity'/'immaturity'..

She's a stubborNaughty, loyaLoving, trustworthy, quieTender female..

Rarely shows her emotions in front of people she feels fishy about..*fact*

She can have more than one angle to her personality-changes them accordingly..

She has weaknesses,strengths& she knows them all..

Loves to improve herself in various ways..

Goal-oriented,sociable,loves meeting new ppl from various cultures,religions..

Rarely judges-only when needed..

Very cautious not to hurt anyone by her words or attitude..

Enjoys listening more than talking..

Loves to watch from far,& analyze..

Expresses who she truly is through her pen-her best-friend..

Finds ultimate peace when she prays as she knows God is watching..listening..forgiving..

Finds her infinite happiness when she travels & sees the world-she finds a new region within her that makes her 'new-born'..
(Her only exit 2 freedom)

She forgives,but never forgets..

She is still learning not to expect too much..

She prefers to be alone;enjoy her own company,than simply put an 'act' of happiness in a crowd..

A true father is a friend first..!!

Some things can never be nurtured..

She has a 9-year broken back-bone..

Trusting 'some' is like learning 'Chinese'..

Love is what drives her 2 be 'alive'.. & betrayal kills her with a knife..

She's a full-time thinker,a worrier,analyzer, sacrificer,more of a life-time 'giver' than a part-time 'taker'..

Her youth was ripped off at 21..& she saw it all in a 'dream' yet never knew..

Some totally smashed her;yet never apologized..

Her friends are the 'circle' of her life;while part of her family are the 'square'-too many edges,boundaries,dishonest games..(Ugh)

She's not pessimistic,but life didn't enhance her with enough chances to enjoy the feeling of being optimistic..(Middle is always good)

Most people in her life pulled her down rather than lifted her up,yet she never gave up..

Always missing someone who is 'missing'..

She wonders if one-day she decides to take-off,will they realize..?!

Her mother is her 'life mirror' & the 'eyes @ the back of her head'..

Her grandparents were 'the pillars of her life'-(Thank God she still is blessed with 1)..

Still figuring out the difference between 'alone' & 'lonely'..

Her 'other-half' is still missing.. ^_^

She Thanks God she's 'biologically sisterless'..

Realities of life: Religion,love,birth,friendship & death..

'Honest angels' are found in children & elderly people..(Her top weakness)

It just struck her the people she cares most about never truly knew her;while strangers' value her much more..*Weird*..

A shadow of light is better than fake reality..

She has a unique sense of humor,enjoys a good laugh,& always searches for 'happiness from the heart'..

If she's hurt,she'll disappear over night as if she was never here..

She rarely complains;she keeps quiet-she always feels Silence is Gold..

She still awaits for her 'life-time' Hug-(either comes once or never @ all)..

She designed her 'dream home'..and the decoration is in process.

Has a passion for interior decoration

Am an 'unpublished book'..(Soon)

Some movies are not just 'movies'-they are an academy of life..

If life required an academic education;most would fail with honors..

Loves & enjoys reading about horoscopes in terms of life,personality traits,& love..

Misses games like hamburger,mastermind,domino,checkers,Uno,monopoly,connect4,Lego..

Always remembers their afternoons with playing cards,DanCake,& Atari..

A Simple Birthday Wish...

She wanted to give you something simple, yet different on this day..

She chose to write you something..

She hopes she didn't write too much or too little, & just about right..

It's a simple way to tell you she is your friend always, & wants to see you happy,&

that she is happy she knew you..

On this day you were born..by Gods will you came on your own..

You might have said good morning or good afternoon, but from

now on you were never left alone until night, & even uptil dawn..

Be happy & throw away any worry because Kitty & Tweety are in a hurry to wish

you a 'Happy Birthday" & they say please eat all your cake & candy with your

friends & family & enjoy your party happily, & always cherish it with a great memory...

*August - 2011*

     

Bitter-Sweet September...2011...

The beautiful moment is when someone understands you without saying a word..

The sad moment is when you talk, but no one understands..

The worst moment is when you try to explain, and your taken completely the wrong way...

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Dreams are dreams..fantasies are fantasies..

Emotions are beautiful sensations - never illusions or hallucinations, but

always two souls sitting peacefully within two minds, uniquelly wrapped inside two hearts

without any games of darts..& please don't say I never warned you my sweethearts...

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In her own arms she sleeps..she tries & retries to close her eyes..while praying for no more goodbyes..Unconditionally tears race down her eyes..

In her own arms she sleeps..while no one can sense her deepest aches of loneliness..

She prefers complete quietness..talking will not do her any goodness..finally she sleeps, in her dreams escapes into the lakes - maybe awaiting her are beautiful fairytales...

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From her window, she sees a broken hearted widow, walking along side the road hand-in-hand

with her pillow..not knowing who to follow..she looks high up in the sky & sees a rainbow..

She quickly lifts both hands & prays for a brighter tomorrow & please  

God without any more sorrow...

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On her swing she plays..while her hair sways both ways, & her mind in thought flies, but her heart in bitterness cries...

  
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Enjoy repeating my foot prints on sand..wishing they would stay forever to prove I was once here whenever..wherever...

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Never a side dish;make a wish 2 never be a dead fish..:*

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Flood of emotions is a sin, sitting in a bottled-up tin with nothing to gain,nor to win...

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Another January Where I Cry...

For me, 2012 is another year gone by..
Another January where I cry, but didn't die, &
nine years passed by in a blink of an eye, &
where everyday I sigh, & simply say 'Oh My'...   

On Your Ground..or in Your Hand...

I want to land on your ground..
Touch your sand with my hand..
Help our people succeed without any greed..
& pray to God for a better end..
Egypt - we are all with you hand-in-hand until we find no one dead whether on your ground or in your hand...

MooNighTrapped...

In 2000, he unexpectdly had a long night away from home, sat alone, and gazed into the black sky, few stars at a distance, and a full moon being so bright; yet everything felt so dark from the small window from where he sat all night long, waiting to be punished for his innocent mistake.....

The young, innocent and fragile person he once was; wasn't mentally or emotionally equipped for such a dramatic experience - maybe this was his first adulthood challenge that changed his views towards life and people, & shifted him from an innocent boy to a strong man over night..

Does something always have to happen to change the person either to the better or to the worse...? or is everything just left open to one's fate, and destiny...?

Despite the fear towards the punishment he will receive, feeling lonely all night long, shivering inside-out like never before, and many other unknown feelings racing through his fast-beating heart; yet she filled his heart with warmth during the freezing long night, security towards the fearful tomorrow, and a pure soul-2-soul connection across the black sky, few stars along the distance, and the full moon being so bright.. These are the things she shared with him that night, and which kept him company all night long..

Do people have to meet one another to experience, and feel these beautiful bitter-sweet; yet innocent emotions, or could they just have united souls across a thousand miles and thereafter meet in person when God says its time... ...

The Distances', and soul-2-soul connection were their pre-introduction chapters' to everything that came ahead.. Everything began before they actually met, and their hearts happily salsad, & tangoed; solely depending on their soul connection to one another........

At that time, she had no idea her impact in his life had been so deep, intense, and unique...by just a thought..a feeling..a soul-to-soul connection..She was grateful..she was happy..and she felt totally special in the way he had strong feelings of belonging to her during that long night...

It was not long after that where a new chapter was opened for them to begin a new experience..a new feeling..a new everything..as one soul connected to eachother across the distances which had no importance..and caused them no problems...

You Are...

You are very close, just a few minutes from where I am; yet you are still far away from my sight, but you are growing inside my heart...

You are still a stranger to my knowledge, but you could be a soulmate for life...

You are sociable when you have to be, but deep inside when no one is looking you are shy, innocent, and prefer to enjoy your own company...

You are laughing happily, but truly, you are hiding a lot behind the curtain of happiness...

You are in the middle of a big puddle of people, but I feel you are lonely...

You are a talker, but i feel you will listen to me forever...

You are romantic behind the scenes; or you are waiting for your right time to express or you are still looking for your perfect love...?

You are a lovely giver, but you are a greedy taker too...

You are a tender soul, but you are a bull when teased...

You are many beautiful things in one, but i feel you are going to be my whole world...

You are you, where ever you are, whatever you are doing, whataver you are saying, whatever you are feeling right now...

You are in the air, you are floating closely around me, you are guarding me with your heart, you are lifting me up high...

You are quiet, but i could hear all what you are going to say...

You are an open page for me to understand, but i feel you are going to be an open book for me to know by heart...

You are in the air...you are closer to me than we both think you are...

You are going to come soon...you are going to hold my hand forever...you are going to keep me close where ever you are going to settle...

You are mixed feelings to me right now, but i feel you are going to be the clearest crystal in my life...

Written on Febuary - 2011