Quotes for the Mind & Heart...

"Believe what you see, forget what you hear.." *updated motto*

"Im a big big girl in a small world" 

"Love to hear the lies, when I already know the truth..."

"It's amazing how much someone can hurt you without them even knowing..." *whatever*

"The first person whos on your mind the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason of either your happiness or pain..." *facts*

"Realize, she might not be insecure; she just doesn't trust a lot of people because of the past..." *facts*

"What goes around, comes around" "Wake-up-smell the coffee" "Some things are felt,& never said" "First mistake is a 'mistake'; second one is a 'choice' "Love me as I am, or watch me as I go" "Treat people the same way you would like to be treated". "It takes two to tango" "Nothing lasts forever" "Bad things happen to good people" "You don't respect yourself, no one will" "Everyone is guilty until proven otherwise" "A thin line between why & why not"

Listen to Her Silent Voice...

Preparing and completing my endless list of things to do, people to see, places to visit, pages to

throw, others to burn, while opening new ones painted in the colors of only my

happiness..'my plans' - my dreams..my future map..*I will do it all on my own-no one else will*

When..how..why..I have nothing more to say but Oh My...*hang on*

I celebrate when adding new friends, new people & much more when deleting, blocking unwanted shallow people...

Only I know where I come from..what i want & where I want to go...

Roses are just roses...

Quietness is priceless...

Patience is elegance...

Maturity is defined by everything except age...

Feeling warm in cold weather is a good sign...

Sleepless is endless & tasteless, yet when choosing the tuitty fruity juicy tiny winy candy sweets; it can be so
dekicious:*   

Different..significant..vibrant she will always remain to be...

Who simply does not value my mind,will never win my heart..

If you're sincere;doesn't mean others are too..

She rarely had that 'special someone',but when she does,& that 'click' clicked; she gives all what she's got & more..When she's hurt,she can never 'hate',but keeps a record of all black-listed ppl..*reference*

Don't see people through your lens,but for who they truly are..

It hurts when you think someone understands who you truly are,but they actually don't,& what's worse is they get you all wrong..

Kind hearted,patientaurus,yet when teased she's The Bull..

Who doesn't know a thing about my past,has no right to judge me at present,or predict how will I be in the future..

She's shy with strangers;it takes a personality 'out of the box' to unwrap her mind,soul,& heart..

She gets super annoyed when her 'kind heart' gets mistakenly shuffled-up with 'stupidity'/'immaturity'..

She's a stubborNaughty, loyaLoving, trustworthy, quieTender female..

Rarely shows her emotions in front of people she feels fishy about..*fact*

She can have more than one angle to her personality-changes them accordingly..

She has weaknesses,strengths& she knows them all..

Loves to improve herself in various ways..

Goal-oriented,sociable,loves meeting new ppl from various cultures,religions..

Rarely judges-only when needed..

Very cautious not to hurt anyone by her words or attitude..

Enjoys listening more than talking..

Loves to watch from far,& analyze..

Expresses who she truly is through her pen-her best-friend..

Finds ultimate peace when she prays as she knows God is watching..listening..forgiving..

Finds her infinite happiness when she travels & sees the world-she finds a new region within her that makes her 'new-born'..
(Her only exit 2 freedom)

She forgives,but never forgets..

She is still learning not to expect too much..

She prefers to be alone;enjoy her own company,than simply put an 'act' of happiness in a crowd..

A true father is a friend first..!!

Some things can never be nurtured..

She has a 9-year broken back-bone..

Trusting 'some' is like learning 'Chinese'..

Love is what drives her 2 be 'alive'.. & betrayal kills her with a knife..

She's a full-time thinker,a worrier,analyzer, sacrificer,more of a life-time 'giver' than a part-time 'taker'..

Her youth was ripped off at 21..& she saw it all in a 'dream' yet never knew..

Some totally smashed her;yet never apologized..

Her friends are the 'circle' of her life;while part of her family are the 'square'-too many edges,boundaries,dishonest games..(Ugh)

She's not pessimistic,but life didn't enhance her with enough chances to enjoy the feeling of being optimistic..(Middle is always good)

Most people in her life pulled her down rather than lifted her up,yet she never gave up..

Always missing someone who is 'missing'..

She wonders if one-day she decides to take-off,will they realize..?!

Her mother is her 'life mirror' & the 'eyes @ the back of her head'..

Her grandparents were 'the pillars of her life'-(Thank God she still is blessed with 1)..

Still figuring out the difference between 'alone' & 'lonely'..

Her 'other-half' is still missing.. ^_^

She Thanks God she's 'biologically sisterless'..

Realities of life: Religion,love,birth,friendship & death..

'Honest angels' are found in children & elderly people..(Her top weakness)

It just struck her the people she cares most about never truly knew her;while strangers' value her much more..*Weird*..

A shadow of light is better than fake reality..

She has a unique sense of humor,enjoys a good laugh,& always searches for 'happiness from the heart'..

If she's hurt,she'll disappear over night as if she was never here..

She rarely complains;she keeps quiet-she always feels Silence is Gold..

She still awaits for her 'life-time' Hug-(either comes once or never @ all)..

She designed her 'dream home'..and the decoration is in process.

Has a passion for interior decoration

Am an 'unpublished book'..(Soon)

Some movies are not just 'movies'-they are an academy of life..

If life required an academic education;most would fail with honors..

Loves & enjoys reading about horoscopes in terms of life,personality traits,& love..

Misses games like hamburger,mastermind,domino,checkers,Uno,monopoly,connect4,Lego..

Always remembers their afternoons with playing cards,DanCake,& Atari..

A Simple Birthday Wish...

She wanted to give you something simple, yet different on this day..

She chose to write you something..

She hopes she didn't write too much or too little, & just about right..

It's a simple way to tell you she is your friend always, & wants to see you happy,&

that she is happy she knew you..

On this day you were born..by Gods will you came on your own..

You might have said good morning or good afternoon, but from

now on you were never left alone until night, & even uptil dawn..

Be happy & throw away any worry because Kitty & Tweety are in a hurry to wish

you a 'Happy Birthday" & they say please eat all your cake & candy with your

friends & family & enjoy your party happily, & always cherish it with a great memory...

*August - 2011*

     

Bitter-Sweet September...2011...

The beautiful moment is when someone understands you without saying a word..

The sad moment is when you talk, but no one understands..

The worst moment is when you try to explain, and your taken completely the wrong way...

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Dreams are dreams..fantasies are fantasies..

Emotions are beautiful sensations - never illusions or hallucinations, but

always two souls sitting peacefully within two minds, uniquelly wrapped inside two hearts

without any games of darts..& please don't say I never warned you my sweethearts...

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In her own arms she sleeps..she tries & retries to close her eyes..while praying for no more goodbyes..Unconditionally tears race down her eyes..

In her own arms she sleeps..while no one can sense her deepest aches of loneliness..

She prefers complete quietness..talking will not do her any goodness..finally she sleeps, in her dreams escapes into the lakes - maybe awaiting her are beautiful fairytales...

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From her window, she sees a broken hearted widow, walking along side the road hand-in-hand

with her pillow..not knowing who to follow..she looks high up in the sky & sees a rainbow..

She quickly lifts both hands & prays for a brighter tomorrow & please  

God without any more sorrow...

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On her swing she plays..while her hair sways both ways, & her mind in thought flies, but her heart in bitterness cries...

  
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Enjoy repeating my foot prints on sand..wishing they would stay forever to prove I was once here whenever..wherever...

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Never a side dish;make a wish 2 never be a dead fish..:*

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Flood of emotions is a sin, sitting in a bottled-up tin with nothing to gain,nor to win...

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Another January Where I Cry...

For me, 2012 is another year gone by..
Another January where I cry, but didn't die, &
nine years passed by in a blink of an eye, &
where everyday I sigh, & simply say 'Oh My'...   

On Your Ground..or in Your Hand...

I want to land on your ground..
Touch your sand with my hand..
Help our people succeed without any greed..
& pray to God for a better end..
Egypt - we are all with you hand-in-hand until we find no one dead whether on your ground or in your hand...

MooNighTrapped...

In 2000, he unexpectdly had a long night away from home, sat alone, and gazed into the black sky, few stars at a distance, and a full moon being so bright; yet everything felt so dark from the small window from where he sat all night long, waiting to be punished for his innocent mistake.....

The young, innocent and fragile person he once was; wasn't mentally or emotionally equipped for such a dramatic experience - maybe this was his first adulthood challenge that changed his views towards life and people, & shifted him from an innocent boy to a strong man over night..

Does something always have to happen to change the person either to the better or to the worse...? or is everything just left open to one's fate, and destiny...?

Despite the fear towards the punishment he will receive, feeling lonely all night long, shivering inside-out like never before, and many other unknown feelings racing through his fast-beating heart; yet she filled his heart with warmth during the freezing long night, security towards the fearful tomorrow, and a pure soul-2-soul connection across the black sky, few stars along the distance, and the full moon being so bright.. These are the things she shared with him that night, and which kept him company all night long..

Do people have to meet one another to experience, and feel these beautiful bitter-sweet; yet innocent emotions, or could they just have united souls across a thousand miles and thereafter meet in person when God says its time... ...

The Distances', and soul-2-soul connection were their pre-introduction chapters' to everything that came ahead.. Everything began before they actually met, and their hearts happily salsad, & tangoed; solely depending on their soul connection to one another........

At that time, she had no idea her impact in his life had been so deep, intense, and unique...by just a thought..a feeling..a soul-to-soul connection..She was grateful..she was happy..and she felt totally special in the way he had strong feelings of belonging to her during that long night...

It was not long after that where a new chapter was opened for them to begin a new experience..a new feeling..a new everything..as one soul connected to eachother across the distances which had no importance..and caused them no problems...

You Are...

You are very close, just a few minutes from where I am; yet you are still far away from my sight, but you are growing inside my heart...

You are still a stranger to my knowledge, but you could be a soulmate for life...

You are sociable when you have to be, but deep inside when no one is looking you are shy, innocent, and prefer to enjoy your own company...

You are laughing happily, but truly, you are hiding a lot behind the curtain of happiness...

You are in the middle of a big puddle of people, but I feel you are lonely...

You are a talker, but i feel you will listen to me forever...

You are romantic behind the scenes; or you are waiting for your right time to express or you are still looking for your perfect love...?

You are a lovely giver, but you are a greedy taker too...

You are a tender soul, but you are a bull when teased...

You are many beautiful things in one, but i feel you are going to be my whole world...

You are you, where ever you are, whatever you are doing, whataver you are saying, whatever you are feeling right now...

You are in the air, you are floating closely around me, you are guarding me with your heart, you are lifting me up high...

You are quiet, but i could hear all what you are going to say...

You are an open page for me to understand, but i feel you are going to be an open book for me to know by heart...

You are in the air...you are closer to me than we both think you are...

You are going to come soon...you are going to hold my hand forever...you are going to keep me close where ever you are going to settle...

You are mixed feelings to me right now, but i feel you are going to be the clearest crystal in my life...

Written on Febuary - 2011